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OtisBee
Otis B.
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darquiel Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Happy B-Day!
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OtisBee Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2016  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks pal :w00t:
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Uriy1966 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2016  Professional Interface Designer
Happy Birthday!
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OtisBee Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2016  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks heaps, my friend!! :#1:
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PoulNyrup Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2016
Hey there Mr. Bee - happy birthday! Hope life's treating you well... :)
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OtisBee Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2016  Hobbyist Interface Designer
nah, life's not treating me that well right now actually. without going into too much detail i think it's okay to say that i haven't been to work for over a year now, because i'm suffering from a severe depression. i've been to the clinic for two months straight, getting medication, visit  a therapist and i'm doing lot's of other things, so that i somehow keep moving, because it's poisonous to let my life get to a standstill.

life's hard right now, very much so.

but looking back shows me that i've already accomplished a lot on my way out of that darkness. it's still some long way to go where lots of patience is required, but at least i'm on that way.

thanks my dear buddy Matthew for thinking about me five days ago.
it means a lot to me knowing that i'm not forgotten. :hug:
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Anoya Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2016   Photographer
Happy birthday! :blowkiss:
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OtisBee Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2016  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Aww, Nancy my dearest Nancy, reading you reminds me that i still owe you some replies to quite a few deep and lovely texts. your words always touched me and somewhat connect me to you in a very comforting way.

it is so strange that although i so much value your friendship and although i feel that i can write and share my deepest secrets with you, i for some reason do the exact opposite by saying nothing.

it starts with the fact that i don't want to write to you in a rush but instead want to take my time, coz you deserve that. so i postponed my intentions to reply to you to a later and presumably better occasion. then time passes by and the more time went by the more a black spot in my conscience starts to grow. So much so that at some point a feeling of being ashamed for not having replied yet kicks in and that i now owe you an apology, which in turn means the feeling of guilt. it grows and grows and reaches a dimension so that eventually i get the feeling that i can't look you in the eye anymore and the result is that i probably won't reply to you at all anymore.

and all that while i still feel that i have so much to say to you and that you mean something very special to me. paradox, right? childish even.

and here we are today and i'm starring at your "blowkiss" being overwhelmed by the fact that despite all my neglecting you, you still think about me with kind intentions, wishing me a happy birthday.

i want you to know, that you'll always have a place in my heart, my Nancy!

thanks so much and hugs and kisses to you, my dear! :blowkiss:
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Anoya Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2016   Photographer
You don't 'owe' me anything, babe. I always loved talking to you and I always will. It might not be as frequent, but who cares. I've always deeply appreciated our contact. I'm glad you feel similar!

You don't have to write and share your deepest feelings with me, as long as you know you can. That's the thing that counts, at least in my opinion.

I get what you're saying about postponing because you don't want to write just a quick message, and then life happens and it gets put on the back burner. That's alright and I don't blame you. It happens to every one of us. Never feel ashamed for not replying yet, I don't care how long ago it was. I'm always happy to read your messages. Good thing about these screens is that you don't have to look me in the eye, silly, so don't worry about any of that.

It's not childish, it's understandable. I can relate to what you're saying 'cause I feel the same way most of the time.

Maybe I don't see it as neglect and I see at as 'life happened' and you reply to me when you have time. I'm not angry, mad or anything like that. Like I said above, I've always appreciated our contact and I cherish our friendship. Some friends you don't talk to every day, but when you do, it feels like you just continued where you left off. I feel this is one of those friendships.

I'll always be here, Otis, or on FB or where ever, whenever you do feel like you want to write and share with me. As long as you know you can and don't have to. :heart: :blowkiss:
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Pulicoti Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2016
Happy Birthday ;) :beer:
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